Loose Ends

(album: Not Waving, But Drowning - 2019)

Enough when the going is tough
I'll wait till it falls on deaf ears
heresay without the boundaries of love
My take is I wish there was a better way

I got a lotta love, a lotta loose ends
A lot of people that I wish I knew then
Friends beckon every second you spend
I'm wetting the pen every letter you send
I got a lotta love, a lotta loose ends
A lot of people that I wish I knew then
Friends beckon every second you spend
I'm wetting the pen every letter you send

Yo, I been listening to Dreamy Days
I'm in disarray
I realize it's everybody else who's still astray
I feel ashamed, I know there ain't no saving away
They went astray, I went Australia, so what am I supposed to say to 'em?
When all this love's out of range everything around me changed
I'm supposed to stay the same
Turn down these free drinks I couldn't even name
And I like all this money, 'cause I'm fucking up my brain
I've been going insane
Shelf full of family remains
Broken heart is seeking, none of them had came
I, I pull the glass, stick my head out in the rain
Try and find another person I can blame
Sat upon this plane
And yo, I'm praying that we don't crash
'Cause every night I shiver at the sight when we go back
'Cause every night could be my last and yeah, I know that
So I crack a smile 'fore it goes black
Trust

Enough when the going is tough
I'll wait till it falls on deafened ears
He'll say without the palm trees so low
My take is I wish there was a better way

I got a lotta love, a lotta loose ends
A lot of people that I wish I knew then
Friends beckon every second you spend
I'm wetting the pen every letter you send
I got a lotta love, a lotta loose ends
A lot of people that I wish I knew then
Friends beckon every second you spend
I'm wetting the pen every letter you send

Trust
I wish you'd been here when my dad had died
I wish you'd been here when my mother cried
I wish you'd been here in the drag of night
To see my side, look me in my eyes when I was paralyzed
And tell me everything's alright and push it to the side
It's just a sacrifice, at times I told a bag of lies
But not a pack of lies, we always told a couple ones
Of course it was true, you only knew me from the dramatize
I feel an agonizing risk 'cause in a thousand islands this
Is where I really wanna be when we were cracking wise
'Cause it was black and white, literally black and white
White from my mother when my father was the blackest skies
Skies, I, I can see it's true
I, I see my mother up in you
Shit, I think my dad would see it too
Yo, I just wish he knew

Enough when the going is tough
I'll wait till it falls on deafened ears
He'll say without the palm trees so low
My take is I wish there was a better way

I got a lotta love, a lotta loose ends
A lot of people that I wish I knew then
Friends beckon every second you spend
I'm wetting the pen every letter you send
I got a lotta love, a lotta loose ends
A lot of people that I wish I knew then
Friends beckon every second you spend
I'm wetting the pen every letter you send

Imagine all the friends you see most
Each one you're pegging away
Depending on you putting pen to the page
And so you break it down, checking they're paid
Another day your heart breaking, you resented the stage
You feel that same rage
Watch the crowd, watch the stage, thinking
Shit, rather in the crowd with your mates drinking
Misbehaviors, catch another dame winking
You feel ashamed, guzzle Jagers, your brain's sinking
You think it's deep down, think it's depression
A mis-spent adolescence, but all this time
All this time, time's of the essence
You would never learn from your lessons
You're stuck in that same quintessence
Heartbreak, one in the same
Days change but you're stuck in the game
It's like, she's telling you you're young enough to be at uni
Somehow the one who sees through me