Conviction

(album: Reflections - 2015)

All of my life
I been trying to get it right
I keep gripping on this mic
I ask the Lord to take my soul into the night

Looking within man I been struggling with an addiction
I can't get up and I been stuck inside of this affliction
Pain I'm feeling I think that I'm in a bad condition
I hear myself saying to stop, I never listen
Will I ever forgive myself for all these bad decisions?
Even if I did will God given me his blessed permission
Let me into his kingdom I've lived in opposition
Will you hear my submission preaching with my own conviction
What happened to my ambition that I had when I was a kid
I lost my mission, I'm in a prison I'm hearing the record skip
Incarcerated by these bars that I put into words
Contemplating conformity so my musics heard
People tell me they feel what I say, even if it burns
Not a negative person don't ever misinter-pret the messages that I convey
If I did it I swear that it wasn't on purpose I'm giving you everything that I have got
Spitting the truth in all of my verses

Lot of people say to be honest when I write my music
But honestly my honesty would come off too intrusive
How can I rap about this shit in a club on a Friday night
Exchange my thoughts for getting money and them bitches hyped
I care about my family, I care about my image
I care that one day my grandchildren will hear all my lyrics
One day I'll be a father
One day I'll make mine proud
One day I'll be watching over my family in the clouds
When I made changes and reflections I was stressing and damn
Still looking in the mirror trying to find who I am
Man I ran away from home, I left my girl alone
I took a shot in the dark and I left my comfort zone
I'm pretty proud of that no one can take it from me
To those who stayed by my side you'll be here for all the glory
Protect those that I love and I carry y'all in my heart
I know that y'all will be there even if I fall apart
I know that y'all will be there even if I fall apart

Man I graduated college
And I began to acknowledge
There's a lot more to life then being socially polished
Find people that you love hold em close and never let go
Take a chance in your life or you're never gonna grow
Say what's real when you're talking about what you really feel
No point in hiding behind insecurities you fear
Look at me I took a leap of faith displaying my flaws
Even though I know everyone I know is gonna hear this song
Man I used to kick back with Eminem on
I would listen in awe drift away with headphones on
Dream of the lights the stage and the action
I am thankful to all of my role models who gave me this passion that I was lacking
Live like you'll die today, dream like you'll live forever
A quote that I follow I learned from my desperate measures
But I keep on pushing I see the sun through the stormy weather
I bow my head and pray knowing one day it will get better
I bow my head and pray knowing one day it will get better
Will get better