Drowning

(album: Enough - 2019)

I keep calling
I keep falling down I'm trying to get up
Can you save me
I don't know if I can do this on my own
I keep calling
You keep stalling almost every time you go
Can you save me
I don't know if I can even stay afloat

Another night where we disconnect
Say we do but don't show respect
I'm drowning out in way too much stress
Your heart is one that I can't protect
Can't take the love that I offer you
Can't feel affection you offer me
It's hard to fight on this battlefield
And be the man that I gotta be

Then I'm right back with a note pad feeling so mad I've had
Depressed days and I really want my life back
Heart cold one day I'll need a bypass
I'm living sidetracked
Feeling hijacked
And I don't get sleep without a nightcap
I'm thinking that I'm on a different flight path
I'm numb at the bottom of the bucket with a white flag I don't wanna fight back nah

I'm drowning and nobody ever tries to reach me
Tide is coming and the waters getting too deep
Why can't you hear me when I'm screaming that I can't breathe
Can't breathe

I keep calling
I keep falling down I'm trying to get up
Can you save me
I don't know if I can do this on my own
I keep calling
You keep stalling almost every time you go
Can you save me
I don't know if I can even stay afloat

I used to believe I had to be
A perfect person I had to keep
The real me locked in I could not compete
Didn't love myself I was not complete

I drift off into the distance and never listen when you trying to figure out what this is
I've taken a road I could not have predicted
Seeking in myself trying to find where bliss is

Deep in my bones I can feel the trauma
Try to feel good but I'm used to drama
Tend to find peace when I lie in silence
Either that or in a beat when I meet with karma
I created a war that's filling with broken apologies
And if I drift off to the deepest of waters I understand that you can't follow me
Will you follow me

I'm drowning and nobody ever tries to reach me
The tide is coming and the waters getting too deep
Why can't you hear me when I'm screaming that I can't breathe
Can't breathe

I keep calling
I keep falling down I'm trying to get up
Can you save me
I don't know if I can do this on my own
I keep calling
You keep stalling almost every time you go
Can you save me
I don't know if I can even stay afloat

Yeah
You reach me
Can't breathe
When the waves come crashing down
Pull me under and surround me
Will you reach out

I guess we don't know where this might go
But I know that we're stuck in a cycle
It feels like we're drifting apart
An ocean between us in need of a lifeboat
But I'll never let go
I'm with you together as long as we're walking this tightrope

I'm drowning and nobody ever tries to reach me
Tide is coming and the waters getting too deep
Why can't you hear me when I'm screaming that I can't breathe