Excuses

(album: Bad Dream Mad Again II - 2014)

I'm not tryna hear it
I know you said you're sorry but I heard that shit a thousand times Thousand times, yeah
I'm not tryna go near it
Because I love it and I fear it and I need that shit to cloud my mind Cloud my mind, yeah
From the drama in the city now
From the money to the pretty hoes
From the parties to the videos
I need your empty heart and your apologies just to cloud my mind Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind

I remembered it so clear at first
I think I mostly blocked it out so I could just stop being hurt
I went on my computer, checked the history and did a search Found what I was afraid of and then called while you were still at work
Screamed into the phone, I was crying till I almost died
I swear I knew it all along and you lied
But it didn't stop from leaving your day job early and you still tried to explain that it all happened way before me
And I said hookers cannot fall in love, and you looked at me
Then I screamed that they don't feel love and you looked at me
Then I threw your phone into the wall and you looked at me
You looked at me, then you cried

Girl you're out of my mind now
Glad you're not in my bedroom
Seeing you in my dreams still, sleeping when I get to
City lights are orange, all your stuff still in my storage
Girl I gave you everything and didn't charge you nothing for
Now your name is not in my mouth and your friends are not at my house
And your number's not in my phone and your feet are not on my couch
I swear I can still hear you screaming that I was wrong
Even though you knew you were lying to me all along and I accepted it
Watched you tap your nails on your phone and I didn't realize I cared still if tomorrow you were gone
And tomorrow came so fast and before I knew it you were on the next and I would text, the apologies kept me going', yeah

I'm not tryna hear it
I know you said you're sorry but I heard that shit a thousand times Thousand times, yeah
I'm not tryna go near it
Because I love it and I fear it and I need that shit to cloud my mind Cloud my mind, yeah
From the drama in the city now
From the money to the pretty hoes
From the parties to the videos
I need your empty heart and your apologies just to cloud my mind Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind

You said you went before it came between us
But I just couldn't be around to watch you fight those demons Grew up in the suburbs with my parents and my sister
And got mixed up with my bikers who were hooked up with some strippers
You were fucking around with some dealers who were rolling around with some killers who were hooked up with people I would chill with, shout out still
I remember it so vividly
That imagery is burned into my mind and it would stick with me
Hotel room, lingerie, you, me and some J
He was against the wall, I was against the odds
I had my knife against his face and I asked him
"Who the fuck are you?" and he looked at me, and I asked again
So just say it, tell me that you're sorry cause I been sorry
Fuck your loser boyfriend, I'm an artist, what is his story?
Falling out of love but I can't ignore the attraction
I'm in love with something else, you're just a beautiful distraction, you bitch

Just a beautiful distraction, you bitch
(I still think about your story) you bitch
You're just a beautiful distraction you bitch
(I still think about your story) you bitch
(I still think about your story)
When you holler at me like how close (it didn't work out before) and I'll respond how it goes

I'm not tryna hear it
I know you said you're sorry but I heard that shit a thousand times Thousand times, yeah
I'm not tryna go near it
Because I love it and I fear it and I need that shit to cloud my mind Cloud my mind, yeah
From the drama in the city now
From the money to the pretty hoes
From the parties to the videos
I need your empty heart and your apologies just to cloud my mind Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind
Cloud my mind