Sentry

(album: Halloween Mixtape - 2021)

Please don't go
I'm not ready to be all on my own
Goodbye for eternity
You were everything to me
You were everything

I try to look back on better days
I contemplate the words I never got to say
My heart is broken, words left unspoken
I wish I had more time beside you
You praised me for the good and left out the bad
You were a shoulder I could cry on when I was sad
I feel so empty
You were my sentry
Now no one's looking out for me

As I drive down the narrow pass
The sunset shines right through the glass
I hope to see you in my rear-a-view
It's so damn hard to accept I've lost you

Please don't go
I'm not ready to be all on my own
Goodbye for eternity
You were everything to me
You were everything
Please don't go
I'm not ready to be all on my own
Goodbye for eternity
You were everything to me
You were everything

Staring at the mirror, I don't look the same
I try to fake a smile, I can't hide the pain
I'm losing feeling, my heart's not healing
I'm losing more sleep by the day
Your voice had a way
To fill the space
I can't get used to
Living without you
My nightmare's become reality

As I drive down the narrow pass
The sunset shines right through the glass
I hope to see you in my rear-a-view
It's so damn hard to accept I've lost you

Please don't go
I'm not ready to be all on my own
Goodbye for eternity
You were everything to me
You were everything
Please don't go
I'm not ready to be all on my own
Goodbye for eternity
You were everything to me
You were everything

You were everything to me
You were everything
You were everything to me
You were everything
You were everything to me
You were everything
You were everything to me
You were everything

Hey mom, it's me
Sorry I haven't called, and then it's been a while
A month has passed since I lost John, it still doesn't feel real
I think about you all the time
Throughout the day I check my phone and see if you've called, but then I remember you can't
I don't sleep very well, but every now and then I see you and that makes it better
I still can't accept that you left so soon
All the times I wanted to share with you won't happen, and my life will move on without you
I can only hope that you're still with me in some way
But I guess it's time for me to go, I have to prepare for your birthday tomorrow
I'll be at the beach watching the sunset
I hope wherever you are you'll have the same view
I love you, bye mom