every night

(album: soph's throwaways - 2016)

Do you remember
The way that the stars looked
The night when we first met [?]
One touch and I'm hooked
I try to stay focused
On the stupid sitcom
Playing in front of me

I try to pretend I didn't want you closer
I tried to pretend that I didn't want to know you
Every night, after that, I thought "I love you"
You get me up just trying to pretend you want me to

Do you remember the way that my eyes lit up
When you first said you can't get me off your mind? Oh...
I was so dizzy, you made me feel crazy [*turning page*]
You'd call and we would laugh until
The lazy hours of the morning

I try to pretend I didn't want you closer
I tried to pretend that I didn't want to know you
And every night, after that, I thought of you
You keep me up just trying to pretend you want me to

One year of heartbeats and drunken adventures
One year of footsteps always beside me
One time we said it, the thunder and lightning
You lit my cigarette while I cried

I try to pretend I didn't want you closer
I tried to pretend that I didn't want to know you
Tried to pretend
I tried to pretend
I tried, I tried, I tried