Selfish

Holding my hands while I took my first steps
I was in your ribs when I took my first breath
I don't wanna be too harsh, I know how it was back then
And best believe I learned it's easy to pretend

But you were holding my hands when I took my first steps
Now every time I come home I feel like a threat
And every time you touch me it feels like it did back then
I wish that I could forget

Laid up in my ride
I'm way too high to drive
There's too much on my mind
And I don't know I'll be here for long
Laid up in my ride
I'm looking up at the sky
Watching stars go by
And I don't know I'll be here for long

I gotta get a little bit less selfish, can't keep using you to get right
I gotta get a little bit less helpless, can't keep using you to get right
Can't keep making you sacrifice, I can't keep spilling my guts out
Can't keep fucking up all these nights, gotta keep my shit down

I gotta keep my shit down, can't keep letting it out
I gotta keep my wits about me, feel like I'm freaking em out
Like when I broke down outside crying on you, we were on the couch
Never wanna do that to you again

Take it in stride, 'cause I had no words yet
Tryna keep me clean always was the worst bet
But I don't wanna be too harsh, I know what it's like to lose
And what it is to regret

Laid up in my ride
I'm way too high to drive
There's too much on my mind
And I don't know I'll be here for long
Laid up in my ride
I'm looking up at the sky
Watching stars go by
And I don't know I'll be here for long

I gotta get a little bit less selfish, can't keep using you to get right
I gotta get a little bit less helpless, can't keep using you to get right
Can't keep making you sacrifice, I can't keep spilling my guts out
Can't keep fucking up all these nights, gotta keep my shit down

Laid up in my ride
I'm way too high to drive
There's too much on my mind
And I don't know I'll be here for long
Laid up in my ride
I'm looking up at the sky
Watching stars go by
And I don't know I'll be here for long

I gotta get a little bit less selfish, can't keep using you to get right
I gotta get a little bit less helpless, can't keep using you to get right