Many Moods Part 1

I don't really know what the neighbours think,
I've been stuck in my home going crazy with,
A lot of mad thoughts, I back track to the back door,
Reminiscing on the many mistakes I made,
Like what did I do that for?
It was a long year wow,
And maybe I wasted my chance,
I dunno if they even wanna hear now,
But let me speak anyway,
Thank God that I'm still breathing today,
I read the bible, get baffed by the words,
But I still believe what they say,
I guess that's faith,
But honestly, this musics been getting on top of me,
I put out my worst tune probably,
No surprise no one liked it,
That 99p was overpriced,
And at that time nothing was going right,
I guess it was back to the drawing board,
I'm tired of fighting my label,
Tell them I don't wanna war no more,
I just wanna share my thoughts,
I just wanna start some conversations,
No complications, man I had observations,
Got a lot to state, I know that,
But I can't back to waiting no fam,
Gotta say this now,
Look around we're destroying each other,
No other way that I can break this down,
I can't stand by in vain,
Cause If I make no noise then I'm the same, yeah,
Forget hype,
Forget accolades, I'll get by,
I can't stand around and just watch,
Or let people tell me what's what,
I don't understand how we speak,
Of some women like they're just meat,
I don't know no bitch,
Stand on my own on a solo tip,
Man I don't care what nobody thinks,
Guys wanna talk about her body count,
And say that's why no man's not around,
As if she's some damaged goods,
I can't stand it fam, I know that man would,
Beat and leave in a sec, even forget,
Like there ain't need to reflect,
But if they got a sis, and man try takin the piss,
That's something that he will regret,
But you're no different,
So why does it seem so distant,
I ain't saying that she's no victim,
I guess we all play our part,
Still though on a real though,
Man I can't chill no,
Gota say what I feel,
Hoping they feel though,
If they don't then it's all good,
Can't not say what I know that I should,
Cause then I perpetuate problems,
Got a lot that I better say often,
Don't nobody think before they speak?
One quick link before they beat,
Just two kids with one of the way now,
Actions can't be erased now,
They wanna run back to their mums,
And hear them say it will be ok now,
But life's changed now,
And I ain't judging,
Like I ain't done some dumb things,
It ain't always swings and roundabouts,
It ain't always stew with dumplings,
There's hard times ahead,
So come get inside my head,
You're part of the family, no plan b,
Just take in the rhymes I said.