deathbed

When every thought brings so much pain
It's hard to explain
I don't wanna feel anything
It's hard to explain
I don't wanna change, something in my brain
Telling me to hate all I ever say
I don't wanna change, something in my brain
Won't go away

Far from home, where you'll find me
Made my bed and I'll finally
Lay in it
Lay in it
Far from home, where you'll find me
Made my deathbed and I'll finally
Lay in it
I'll lay in it

Backpacked on my own
Rather be fucked up all alone
Airplane mode on my iPhone
Running from a careless path I wish I'd never known, but I know that
Everyone that I believed in was holding me back, matter of fact
I wasn't leaving because what I needed was space that I lacked, I got off track
Don't wanna do it by myself, but I don't want no help
The only way's to go away and write a story to tell

Made a promise that I'd love myself and a promise that I'd break it
Made a promise that I'd get better and a promise that I'd fake it
Promised myself that I'd give it up, give up everything you hated
Made a promise that I'd enjoy my life, and a promise that I'd take it

Far from home, where you'll find me
Made my bed and I'll finally
Lay in it
Lay in it
Far from home, where you'll find me
Made my deathbed and I'll finally
Lay in it
I'll lay in it

Far from home, where you'll find me
Made my bed and I'll finally
Lay in it
Lay in it
Far from home, where you'll find me
Made my deathbed and I'll finally
Lay in it
I'll lay in it

Guys, just hold me back