Irreparable Pieces (from "i stayed up until sunrise but got to fall asleep to the sounds of birds singing" compilation

Remember when you promised
That you would never leave me
That your heart would never stop shining the light
That kept me warm during the winter
And whole when it was summer
And holds me like no other light before
Like the petals of a flower
Taking chance in its abundance
Take for granted what they gave you everyday
But when autumn takes them back
I don't know who to ask

I haven't left the house in ages
I'm so scared that I am dying
Pray to God that I'm not ready
Slow my heart and keep on trying
To tidy up the mess that I've been
Making most of my life
And continue making music
That I know you only like listening to
When you're in my shoes

Remember when you promised
That this would never happen
It said so in the letter that you wrote
Now I'm so cold during the winter
I want to die when its summer
I hope you die when another has your heart
And smashes it into irreparable pieces
And leaves them on a cold tile floor
Projected to the open
Where your mother can clearly see them
As she steps over the mess that you once were
So they'll be forced to lie
Right there next to mine