Californication Remix

I've been struggling a lot lately
Why's it feel like its world war 3
Is this real, have I gone crazy
Screaming bloody murder while I'm on my knees
What the fuck did I do
To deserve the shit I go through
Red or blue pill, I don't know what one to choose
So lie to me I don't wanna know the truth
'Cause I've been falling apart
I've been lost in the dark

And it's been hard I just gotta face it
I just want peace, I don't want your medication
It's trauma that I'm facing
Got me lost inside the matrix
So I'm confident
My confidence has constantly been vacant
Honestly I hate it
Let me hide out in the basement
Haven't been a people person
I don't got a lot of patience
It makes me wonder if that thing they call insanity
Has gradually been manifesting what the fuck is happening
I don't know what other changes I can make
But the devil keeps on sayin I should see him face to face

Feels like I'm getting nowhere
Noticing that everyone around is see through
Keep on running till the smoke clears
I don't wanna see what's in my rear view
Feels like I'm getting nowhere
Noticing that everyone around is see through
Keep on running till the smoke clears
I don't wanna see what's in my rear view
I don't think I'm gonna make it
It feels like I've been goin crazy
I don't think I'm gonna make it
It feels like I've been goin crazy

I got enough of shit to worry bout now
Please stop calling, let me chill by myself
I don't wanna hear another word out your mouth
I've been breathing in this smoke tryin not to pass out
Why do I resort to self destruction
Probably cuz I'm fucked in the head from the drugs still
And I know you can relate
Just by that look on your face
I had a dream yesterday
That it would all be okay
But then I woke up in a panic
Because it wasn't real
And I'm a hopeless fuckin addict
If my life's a movie I'm not posing for the cameras
Everything I say is true so you know I'm not an actor
What's around the corner is so close, I almost grab it
Keep on knocking at the doorbut it's like no one ever answers
I just lit this cigarette and ima smoke this whole pack
Until I find a real reason I should cope with all this madness

I've been struggling a lot lately
Why's it feel like its world war 3
Is this real, have I gone crazy
Screaming bloody murder while I'm on my knees
What the fuck did I do
To deserve the shit I go through
Red or blue pill, I don't know what one to choose
So lie to me I don't wanna know the truth
'Cause I've been falling apart
I've been lost in the dark

Feels like I'm getting nowhere
Noticing that everyone around is see through
Keep on running till the smoke clears
I don't wanna see what's in my rear view
I don't think I'm gonna make it
It feels like I've been goin crazy
I don't think I'm gonna make it
It feels like I've been goin crazy