Retriever

(album: Golden - 2016)

Spit out my drink on the shelf
Think to myself
What is left
Is there anything else
Hang up my belt
How I felt doesn't matter
I melt
I'm wet batter
I'm sweltering hot
But I'm not what I thought
The plot thickens then rots
Not the pick of the lot
Flick at my watch
Ticking them off like seconds
And then I cough
The trough of liquor down in my belly
Smelly with sauce
I'm jealous with thoughts
Awkward, I tell us aloft
Baby I'm trying to be good
Maybe I'm tying my hood tighter
A fighter flicking my lighter at petrified wood
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Burning and pissing in soot
Lazy but kicking my foot
Skating on thin ice and mud
Debating to weather the flood
Hating
No better than God wasting a litter of dogs
I bite them then spit and applaud
Writing a letter of fraud
To my mom, my sister then long gone
I'm wrong
I don't belong to this planet I'm on

God it's just so easy to point my finger and leave
But don't let this place get the best of me
Cause it's just
I've got one thing I need to retrieve
Don't let this place get the best of me

Now I'm in a spot I've never known
I thought I was grown
Thought I just guessed I could hold my own
So I left me alone
Started to sleep on my throne
Home is a drink and a cone
Can't even think and atone
Won't even blink at the phone
Sorry I have to be here
Couldn't just pass up the fear
Willing to give it my all to fall and laugh at the tears
Years just passing me by
Bye to my life and my pride
Why do I try
I'll just get high and stifle the fight
If I could take back what drove me mad
I wouldn't take back the bad
The greatest times that I had went with them
And even that alone is enough
Stuff the shit up inside
Puff then poof
It goes away like vision at night
Pardon me I'd give my right nut
To cut some of these scenes from this bloody debut
Strut then run at my dreams
Seems my dreams are all I need

God it's just so easy to point my finger and leave
But don't let this place get the best of me
Cause it's just
I've got one thing I need to retrieve
Don't let this place get the best of me

God it's just so easy to point my finger and leave
But don't let this place get the best of me
Cause it's just
I've got one thing I need to retrieve
Don't let this place get the best of me