Lately

(album: 40RTY - 2020)

Am I tripping baby?
I can't seem to tell, what's the difference maybe
It's all in my head, think I'm going crazy
Driving in the slow lane, but doing 80
Around 285, watching the sun rise
Praying for blue skies, while wishing the sun shines
On my rainy days, I'm glad to be alive
But the pain, it stays, bottled up inside
Look into my eyes, some say they see a demon
Scheming, you decide, it's whatever you believe in
Good or evil, I think my angels, double teaming
And they know about cheating, from the school of Bobby Heenan
That's a joke in time, soon you'll find out the meaning
Riding to The Humdinger, Kalifornia Dreaming
Swerving & leaning, trying to have a good day
But I think it's time, that we just bring in some singing

I've been out here by myself, lately
I know I haven't been myself going crazy
Oh I think I need some help, save me
I've been out here by myself, lately

I been out here by myself on the damn street
Living in a nightmare like I'm on Elm Street
I might be getting old but I'm an antique
And I won't take no shorts... like a pants thief
Had to fight all my life, Mama told me watch my mouth
So I just let these hands speak
At night I can't sleep. I get antsy
Waking up, screaming like a banshee
The wife thinks I'm crazy I'm pleading insanity
That's why I keep a little CBD in the pantry
For my A.D.D. either that or a Xanny
Acid and Molly, I'm flipping candy
Responsible for my dysfunctional family
That's probably why my baby mama's mammy can't stand me
Just trying to keep her head above water like Sandy
And this old pistol might come in handy

I've been out here by myself, lately
I know I haven't been myself going crazy
Oh I think I need some help, save me
I've been out here by myself, lately

My therapist said I'm passive aggressive
Bi-polar, manic depressive
But I ain't need no clinical assessment
To know that I been stressing since an adolescent
It might explain why my drinking is excessive
Treating bourbon like an anti depressant
It helps me, be a lil more pleasant
'Til I turn aggressive, then it's ineffective
Losing perspective, chemically imbalance
Seems like all I ever hear is police sirens
No wonder why we so prone to violence
Why cats is wilding, wolves is howling
Just want silence, some peace of mind
So Please be advised, when u look inside
Cuz these eyes, got so much to hide
I be wearing these shades only as a disguise

I've been out here by myself, lately
I know I haven't been myself going crazy
Oh I think I need some help, save me
I've been out here by myself, lately