Everyday

(album: heavy hearted - 2022)

I don't really know what I'm gonna do today
Get fucked up, smoke a cigarette
And waste my life away
My friends, they don't wanna see me
They're "too busy" is what they say
But I'm probably gonna do the same thing
I do everyday, I do it everyday

I never went to prom cause I didn't care
I never felt good in the clothes I wear
Yeah, I wasn't stable enough to let in love
I had feelings I didn't share
I always fucked up everyday at school
I never fit in cause I wasn't cool
Yeah, I didn't look the part and so I fell apart
And started breaking all the rules
I didn't reach out cause no one was there
I didn't drop out cause I was unaware
School doesn't do anything
It don't mean anything
No one even knew I was there
And graduation wasn't fun
Just a slap in the face for what I've become
They say "you're gonna miss those days"
But I don't miss those days
Who even said that anyway?

I don't really know what I'm gonna do today
Get fucked up, smoke a cigarette
And waste my life away
My friends, they don't wanna see me
They're "too busy" is what they say
But I'm probably gonna do the same thing
I do everyday, cause I do it everyday

It's a vicious cycle I can't crack
I get kicked down, then I'm on my back
I know I wanna get back up
I wanna suck it up, I want my life to be on track
I suffered for a really long time
Thought my whole life belonged online
And I was never feeling great
And so I'd medicate
And then pretend that I was fine
But I'm really tired, yeah
Yeah, I'm really tired now
I don't know why, no
I don't know why I'm feeling down
I'm really trying, yeah
I'm, I'm really trying now
I've walked through fires, yeah
I'm trying to find my higher ground

And I don't know what I'll do today
Maybe I'll get fucked up, smoke a cigarette
And waste my life away
And I guess my friends don't wanna see me
They're "so busy" that's what they say
But I'm probably gonna do the same thing
I do everyday, cause I do it everyday
Yeah, I'm probably gonna do the same thing
I do everyday, cause I do it everyday