I Don't Even Know Myself

(album: Lifehouse Chronicles - 2000)

There's nothing in the way I walk
That can tell you where I'm going
There's nothing in the way I speak
That can betray anything I'm knowing
Don't think that by the way I dress
You can fit me on a labeled shelf
Don't pretend that you know me
'Cause I don't even know myself

I don't mind if you try once in a while
I don't mind if I cry once in a while
The doors aren't shut as tight as they might seem
I'm just trying to fight my way out of this dream

Don't listen to the words I say
Weighing up if I'm enlightened
Don't shiver as you pass me by
'Cause Mister I'm the one who's frightened
The police just came and left
They wanted me and no one else
Don't pretend that you know me
'Cause I don't even know myself
Wish I did

I don't mind if you try once in a while
I don't mind if I cry once in a while
The doors aren't shut as tight as they might seem
I'm just trying to fight my way out of this dream

Do you remember me? I don't remember you
Do you still love me? You know I think you do
I have been gone,
And some prison warder knows my scream
I just gotta fight my way out of this dream

There's only five who know my real name
And my mother don't believe they know it
What she calls me is the way I'm staying
And no nigger's gonna ever throw it

Come on all of you big boys
Come on all of you elves
Don't pretend that you know me
'Cause I don't even know myself
I don't know myself

I don't mind if you try once in a while
I don't mind if I cry once in a while