I Always Wanted It This Way

(album: Big Boat - 2016)

As I found out that I
Had a lot to learn
It turns out the tide
Had to take its turn
The line we had drawn
Wasn't straight enough
Though timelines were burned
We rebuilt the trust

I always wanted it this way
I always hoped it'd be this way

I shielded my heart
To make sense of this
The time spent apart
That my conscience missed
My mind
Wandered thoughtlessly
In that land
Of uncertainty

I always wanted it this way
I always wanted it this way

I've stayed
At my station on the scene
And frayed
Like the circuits in between
And played
As the part of a machine
And I found out that I
Had my mind to learn