Birthday Party

(album: Waterslide, Diving Board, Ladder To The Sky - 2022)

A fear of death, a fear of dying
Why won't the dog pick up the stick?
Panic sweats you wake up crying
Always feeling kind of sick

I want one feeling all the time
I don't want to feel a thing
And if I die then you can keep it
I won't tell you what it means

I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved

I'm always playing solitaire
I always kiss you on the lips
And if I die, then you can keep it
I don't want to feel a thing

Always on my best behavior
Sometimes I can't hold it in
Always wait until it's over
I don't want to feel a thing

I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved

You always liked me for some reason
I don't care about a thing
Are you aware that this is broken?
I don't want to feel a thing

Invite me to your birthday party
Watch me cry across the room
I don't want to be forgotten
I don't want to be alone

A fear of death, a fear of dying
Why won't the dog pick up the stick?
Panic sweats, you wake up crying
Always feeling kind of sick

I want one feeling all the time
I don't want to feel a thing
And if I die, then you can keep it
I won't tell you what it means

I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved, I don't wanna be loved
I don't wanna be loved