Stuck In Admiration

(album: Blood Was Never Thick As Water - 2021)

Take away my pain and let me live another day
Hoping by tomorrow I can make it through the rain
We struggle with depression, drown myself in novocaine
'Cause everybody wanna be numb
And everybody wanna be someone, yeah
When the world is falling down around me, how can I keep myself up?
Feel that pressure on my chest, it's starting to build up, yeah
Don't feel like myself again
All these thoughts I keep within
Keep it real, can't play pretend

'Cause I can't be nobody but myself, I know I'm changing
Been tryna wrong my rights before I make it to cremation
Thinking 'bout my past, it got me stuck in admiration
With you, baby, lately I've been going crazy
With you stuck in mind

'Cause I can't be nobody but myself, I know I'm changing
Been tryna wrong my rights before I make it to cremation
Thinking 'bout my past, it got me stuck in admiration
With you, baby, lately I've been going crazy
With you stuck in mind

I been alone for too long
I know I gotta move on
You used to sing my songs
Now I hear nothing but echoes
Gotta know when it's time to let go, yeah
Let it fade in the background
Let it die in your mind, let in rot in your brain
Don't let that pain take away your day

Can't hold on to something that you never had a grip on
From coupons to food stamps
Now I got a black Cadillac with a brand new paint job
Still run around with the AR
You made me like this, man, I hate y'all
Man, fuck y'all
I'm sick in the mind with no day job

'Cause I can't be nobody but myself, I know I'm changing
Been tryna wrong my rights before I make it to cremation
Thinking 'bout my past, it got me stuck in admiration
With you, baby, lately I've been going crazy
With you stuck in mind

'Cause I can't be nobody but myself, I know I'm changing
Been tryna wrong my rights before I make it to cremation
Thinking 'bout my past, it got me stuck in admiration
With you, baby, lately I've been going crazy
With you stuck in mind

I get so tired driving down that same road again
My mind is bloated with some things that I been holding in, yeah
Got me talking to the Almighty
Asking, "Are you really there for me
To help me rewrite my story?" Yeah
I know I'm blessed, but my gift feel like a curse sometimes
I know I'm stressed, baby, this life don't come with rewind
In the meantime, let me remind you, I'm only getting older
No more living in the past with a chip on my shoulder

'Cause I can't be nobody but myself, I know I'm changing
Been tryna wrong my rights before I make it to cremation
Thinking 'bout my past, it got me stuck in admiration
With you, baby, lately I've been going crazy
With you stuck in mind

'Cause I can't be nobody but myself, I know I'm changing
Been tryna wrong my rights before I make it to cremation
Thinking 'bout my past, it got me stuck in admiration
With you, baby, lately I've been going crazy
With you stuck in mind