You Can Trust Me Now

(album: Utopian Ashes - 2021)

I put myself in some dangerous situations
Suffered black dog years of degradation, humiliation, incapacitation
I leave it up to your imagination
Feelings of guilt, shame, and remorse flattened me like a horse
I was conquered, finished, done

Haunted by the ghosts
Of those I hurt
And I abused
In a different lifetime
In another suit and shoes
Behind the mask of anarchy
The wolf inside me grew
Declared war on my sanity
My lies became my truths

You can trust
You can trust
You can trust me now

The speed of life
Was much too fast
You crashed at every bridge
Hiroshima'd your senses
In abattoirs of flesh
Like a sailor out on shore leave
Too wrecked to find his ship
Drunk on your stupidity
It all turned into piss

You can trust
You can trust
You can trust me now

I tried to live the dream
And manage every scene
And for a while
I did with style
Delusional it seems
But your sick soul did sing
It poisoned everything
The seed took root
Bore bitter fruit
You turned into someone
I didn't know

You can trust
You can trust
You can trust me now

All those times, times we died
Dying, just to feel alive