Hands And Knees

(album: The Blue Hour - 2022)

"I'm asking you, I'm begging you, you told me to take my yolk upon you, and learn of you, for your yolk is easy, so I'm giving to you, I'm giving you all my worries, I'm giving you all of my problems that I'm having Lord God, Cause you said that you would take care of them, don't worry Lord God you told me by my, by my faith that I am healed."

On my hands and knees, I pray for peace, I pray for clarity
I let em roll out of my eyes and hit the floor right now
On hands and knees, I pray for peace, I pray for everything
Keep your arms around me, I need your more and more right now
It broke me down into pieces, now shit is a puzzle
Niggas ain't worried about you, till they need something from you
They only seeing the highlights, they don't be seeing the struggle

I walk around bearing the weight of a million pounds
And they wondering how I juggle it well
Like I wear red nose walking, tightropes, in front of a crowd
I know who real by who comin around
Tappin in with me and holding me down, just wanted a friend
Were you a friend to me when I needed niggas around?
Talking to God with all of this praying
Don't wanna be strong no more, it's overrated
The school taught us everything but how to heal
No wonder why niggas be miseducated
I ain't been back to the cemetery since they bury my mama, my nigga I hate it
No time to grieve between caring for my papa and handling all the arrangements
My daddy kids be coming around now
Looking like strangers
It be hard to call you brother and sister when I had a life and you barely was in it
My mama battled the cancer, you never tapped in not one time to see how I was feeling
Left me to be a caregiver for both of the folks, my life and family business
I wasn't tripping, maybe I was, I didn't show it, I kept it calm, I was a stoic
Somebody had to superman, I was heroic
I was devoted, God wouldn't have put it on me if I couldn't hold it
But at times when I felt brokest and at my lowest, I was down

On my hands and knees, I pray for peace, I pray for clarity
I let em roll out of my eyes and hit the floor right now
On hands and knees, I pray for peace, I pray for everything
Keep your arms around me, I need your more and more right now
It broke me down into pieces, now shit is a puzzle
Niggas ain't worried about you, till they need something from you
They only seeing the highlights, they don't be seeing the struggle

"God, whatever the will is, whatever your will is. It's okay Lord God cause I'm in your hands."