Carrie & Lowell & Cody (Pendent)

I self harm with Sufjan, all swole up with martyrdom
The dumb dom she subbed to. I played it cool while being run through
Mom's novel is still edging. I won't spend my life pretending
I loved her for her graceful dwindling
Mom's carcass turns my heart to kindling
Whole life futile, fucking chopping
Chopping at wood: cock, nose and coffin
Rightfully no dysphoric option for Emo Tom Hardy
And his soulful droppings
Equestrian rehab called Vertava
Israel called me up, said "Ha Ha!
You're the homeless schitzo on the street
Who yells out 'I'm an ally! Look at me!"
You left me painfully with the scent of women I could be
David, I miss my mom

You bore'd me blind from death to life
And now the maze you left is on fire tonight
Can I open my eyes?
Now I'm high as fuck in the backroom and hear
Idol waves and sonic booms
Can I open my eyes without you?

So I peel off Jogging highways, no sleep
In hopes I won't sink too deep
My daughters cannot fish me out
I'll never do to them what you did to me, Mom
Quarantine is over those interminable terminals and their
Locked gates didn't have to rob me of your embrace
And you still don't see why I don't believe in your Ha-Ha-Hashem

You stitched my gaze back in the garage and sewed in
Donald Trump montages. Can I open my eyes?
My girl's alive and I got Sean and those sexy fuckers turn me on
You can't open my eyes only I

In the back of me there is something that is odd
I think it is I, I think it is I!
Do right
Don't you sing everything onto me
Don't you Say Anything onto me

I don't know why you cut my cord away
Ima cut my cord away because I have nothing to show
I have nothing to glow for
Cut my cord away. mama cut my cord away.
'Cause I have nothing to show. I have nothing to glow for

I don't wanna be the things that only you would show me
I could never be like you
I don't wanna be the things that always you would show me
I could never be like you