All Time Low

(album: Here Alone: Collection - 2022)

Shouldn't be this complicated

Cross my heart hope to die, I just wanna live
Hate my life, hate my life, I'm so tired of this
I need love, I need strength, to get up again, 'cause
I'm all time low

Tired of sitting inside of my room
With a blank stare
These walls are caving in and
Is anyone out there?
Loneliness is setting in, yeah
My mind's so unclear
I can't think straight
Sometimes I look at my life and feel it's unfair
Put a finger down if you loved someone that you feel like you weren't enough
The biggest mistake, that I ever made, was ignore the feeling in my gut
I said never again, now I'm here again, so I guess I did not learn, huh? (No!)
Oh God, it's deja vu 'cause this all happened more than once, I'm
Chosen, couldn't see it, I was broken
Alone in life, praying to God
Every single night, I was hoping
He'd reply to me and supply the answers
'Cause my life has been moving backwards
And lately I been feeling so low (Cross my heart)

Cross my heart hope to die, I just wanna live
Hate my life, hate my life, I'm so tired of this
I need love, I need strength, to get up again, 'cause
I'm all time low

My child hood left me hella damaged
My love life is a mirror of it all being reenacted
I can't lie tho, it's been a challenge
I am such a hopeless romantic
I be dating the same girl, in the different body
The toxic ones tend to like me
They say they can't live without me
I'm tryna reprogram, my old program
New people tryna step inside of my life but I don't know them
They wanna drain my energy
I can tell I got telepathy
I talk to God and he's telling me, yeah (I still feel)

I still feel so alone and
I need a mental home 'cause
My thoughts got me feeling low, low

Cross my heart hope to die, I just wanna live
Hate my life, hate my life, I'm so tired of this
I need love, I need strength, to get up again, 'cause
I'm all time low