Rock Bottom

(album: Here Alone: Collection - 2022)

I sit alone in my bed I lay
I can't sit and justify my ways
I let depression pick apart my brain
My mind's a weapon and I'm in my aim
A lot of money sitting in my bank
Living in debt cause the price I paid
I sit alone questioning my faith
Behind my phone, just to hide my face
Cause if I don't then I just might break
Don't really know what measures I'll take
My heart corrodes and it can't be saved
I should have known what was at stake
I'm turning cold cause my life don't change
I wanna fold but I just can't cave, I gotta fight (No!... No...)
Don't know how much left is in me
Why do my thoughts always turn against me?
Why is it so hard when my problems hit me?
What if all along the problem is me?
Broken as hell, there's no way to fix me
I feel like a misfit
I wish all my burdens were lifted
I was blind to the lies I was given
Visit my mind and you'll find that it's twisted, I'm twisted
Don't hate me
Still running but forgot what I'm chasing
I'm burnt out, I need matches to save me
It turns out that I'm actually crazy
I find it crazy how I never broke out of this cycle
I know what the issue is, I'm in denial
I should probably go to church and open The Bible
I've been putting off God, I need him for survival
I admit I'm a sinner but I believe in Christ though
Holding on to my hope, knowing that if I don't
I'ma end up on the edge, I'm my biggest rival
Resent the pain I hold and plus on the side note
I broke down yesterday still
I'm numb, nah I don't feel
Struggling, I can't feel
No one stepped in my field (No!)
Broken down after I built (whoa)
A lot of fakes can't find real (whoa)
I need my glass re-filled (whoa)
Dead inside, can't find thrill, I'm... ( No! Ooh)
Still, at the bottom by myself
Stress been affecting my health
Pressures got my overwhelmed
I just checked in a hotel
I need to be alone, don't wanna be alone
I feel like I am in hell
I just check my phone, why do I have a phone? (why?)
Ain't no one hitting my cell, yeah
It is just me and it's always been
We could've had love but you came and went
It's okay, it's alright, cause we made amends
But I still think about what we could have been
But enough about that, let's get back to this
I want real, I don't care what your status is
If I spot out a fake, I'ma handle it (No!)
I don't care if you leave, you'll be back again
Cause you'll be back, and I promise that
A bunch of lames on IG hitting me for a follow back
Hoping that I'ma follow back, honestly I am all for that
This popularity contest is lame and I'm not a part of that
Instead of getting a follow why don't you get to know me? (yeah)
Don't say you love me, display the action and show me
I set the bar high, I don't got time for you phoneys
Tryna show me fake love, that's why I'm felling so lonely
I'm slowly hitting rock bottom but trying to climb to the peak
I cry myself to sleep, the misery that it brings
Is making me want to leave and walk away from my dreams
Cause it's no longer fulfilling, I'm living my life on E, I need (I need!)
Somebody to save me
Talking to myself and I feel like I'm crazy
I'm sick of me and all of my problems
You can't go lower when you hit rock bottom

(Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
I can't get much lower than this (I can't get much lower)
Nah I can't get much lower than this (I can't get much lower)
(Ooh, ooh)