My Rise

(album: Here Alone: Collection - 2022)

Yeah
Fake people in my life, they're all around me
And fake love seems to be all they're offering
Bottom feeders in disguise, tryna harm me
Paranoia's the only thing it's caused me
I feel so alone on this path I'm walking
It's just me and God and we keep on talking
I'm begging him, "Please get these demons off me!"
Can't fight 'em anymore, 'cause it's exhausting
I just wanna feel normal without trauma attached
I just wanna feel my heart, a piece of it's detached
I just wanna feel some real love that isn't an act
I just wanna feel alive and snap out of this trance
These up's and downs overwhelm until I collapse
There's no one to talk to, so I spill in my raps
I'm missing the old me, somebody bring him back
In search of anyone sharing the feelings I have, damn
Misfortunes to fortunes, inspiring
They say just be happy, I tried to be
I think my system needs, re-wiring
'Cause every other day I, am spiraling
In a dark abyss and it feels like home
'Cause it's the only place that I've known
Suppressing my feeling that I don't show
Until I'm bitter and I self-loath, damn
Yeah, look, yeah, I been broken
But look who I became, yeah, I been chosen
I manifested my dreams and I'm still going
I'm passing up everybody from school that I've grown with
So when you diss, I'm convinced that you don't know shit
You spend time at the bars, well I spend mine devoted
To my craft and skills, I double down and I hone them
Now I'm on the rise, and y'all look so hopeless
So despite my feelings of depression
Inside of my hell, lies a lesson
You can visualize your dreams and manifest them
Just realize that your mind is a weapon
And sometimes it can flip any second
It can make the strongest ones feel threatened
It can make the alive ones feel deaden
Point is your mind shapes you, if you let it
Started from the bottom, my dream was feeling impossible
But now I'm at a level where I am feeling unstoppable
The fruits of my labor and here and they taste phenomenal
Breaking all of my records while breaking through every obstacle
Coulda quit a long time ago, but that just isn't in me
'Cause even when I am losing, I always feel like I'm winning
Whenever I hit the end, I'm excited for new beginnings
Inspired by my potential, my drive's an ultimate feeling
I'm breaking through every ceiling, my music is the new healing
I used to hate saying goodbye, but now I am screaming good riddance
To anybody or critic, who doesn't fit in my vision
I always remain persistent, found purpose in my existence
Don't value people's opinions, I value moments I'm living
Was mentally in a prison, so breaking out was the mission
God really granted permission, and put me in this position
He's guiding all my decisions, I'm feeling high in my spirits, I'm
Preaching things that a pastor don't preach
Teaching things that a teacher don't teach
They really thought I would fall and sink
But I haven't even hit my peak
And I won't stop climbing until I reach
The summit, look down and all I see
Is those who doubted all underneath
What a view, ooh, that's the view I need, I
Can manifest every single thing I imagine
I wouldn't know this life if didn't pursue my passion
I'm writing this on a flight, while I'm staring down at the planet
Realizing that I'm alone, but this solitude had to happen
My friends were holding me back, I cut 'em off and I vanished
They didn't wanna evolve, they were to content being stagnant
They were headed towards a dead end, I had foresight they were lacking
Now, I am living their dreams, they see me now and can't stand it, I
Guess they didn't believe
Envy in the air when they see me achieve
R.I.P. your goals, I'm watching all of you grieve
Money can't buy you levels that I've reached
But clown me, diss me, oh well
My success reminds you, you failed
I could tell, keep crying dawg
Can't look down, when I'm rising dawg
Yeah, ha ha
Yeah, yeah
Can't look down when I'm rising dawg
Can't look down when I'm rising dawg
Yeah, my rise