Stones

(album: DOOM. - 2019)

I don't really wanna
Wanna be a wannabe
I can see them watching
But you just know what you see
Everybody's got their problems
So why they throwing stones at me
I know I'm not perfect
But You still said I'm clean

Me and God ain't talking much
I don't feel like I'm enough
Try to smile and say I'm good
But I feel like I'm giving up
Every day is another fight
Some days I wish I don't wake up
The other day my Mother called
And said she's worried bout her son
I don't trust in anyone
Switching churches every month
I tried to tell my pastor friend
He told me chill, you'll be just fine
What kinda advice is that
Where do leaders go to bleed
You mean to say, just hide your scars, 'cause no one feels the same as me
Dang
When are we gonna be real
I know we got some real issues, but my God, He still heals
I was mentally exhausted
All these songs I kept forcing
I used to say no days off
'Cause I thought I'm supposed too
But that's not how it works
Jesus often withdrew
Reconnected to the Father, who am I without You
I'm done doing this alone, I know my God will come though
I know the valleys don't last but the warriors do

I don't really wanna
Wanna be a wannabe
I can see them watching
But you just know what you see
Everybody's got their problems
So why they throwing stones at me
I know I'm not perfect
But You still said I'm clean

Just wanna walk in my calling, but I get in the way
Sometimes I feel that I'm falling, like I've been led astray
And the world's been a cold place lately
So, I dress warm, trust God, and pray for better days
Every day I'm reminded of Your amazing grace
But even though I know, I end up falling flat on my face
I never want to be somebody I'm not
So, I pray You keep me grounded, plant my feet on the rock
Whenever they try to throw one You just throw up a block
Protecting and keeping me from going over the top
And as the world turns I'm gonna hold on tighter than
I ever have before, I gotta grip like Spider-Man
I pray like it's the job I always wanted
For love and serenity to be present the way You planned it
I know sometimes I don't understand it
But it's the peace of God that surpasses all understanding

I don't really wanna
Wanna be a wannabe
I can see them watching
But you just know what you see
Everybody's got their problems
So why they throwing stones at me
I know I'm not perfect
But You still said I'm clean
I don't really wanna
Wanna be a wannabe
I can see them watching
But you just know what you see
Everybody's got their problems
So why they throwing stones at me
I know I'm not perfect
But You still said I'm clean