Fear City

(album: Magic Hour - 2022)

One last breath in fear city
Hold me close 'cause I can't hold on anymore
Oh, what a shame such a pity
I can't indulge myself in the feeling anymore
When I look in the rear view mirror I see burning buildings
Oh, it fills me with, oh, such feelings
Oh, mercy killings
I might just cum at the sound of the dying child in me
"Wait, what did he say?"
I said my hairs just way too short to make a living
"That's definitely not what he said"
But my hairs never been a good measure of my happiness, so I...

I've lived here now for awhile
But most of the times, I just get lost in the days
Hey you, over there with the beautiful smile ("Who, me?")
Yeah, the gapped tooth and the years of denial
Do you have something else that you'd like to say?
"Well, actually, yes, when I was a kid I was obsessed with science
And saw so many random acts of va-va-va-va-violence
The method of the madness made me think I like it
The science of silence, the silence of violence"
So what came first, the silence or violence?
"Oh hunny, you know it really depends on what you're buying these days"

All of my friends call me a light sleeper
Well, I guess that I just don't dream anymore
I used to call the shots but sometimes the shots just have to call themselves
Like making a U-turn on the belt of the highway, I can do it my way now

Like turning around to the burning building
I threw it away for the better living
One at a time and I stepped right in
The carnal knowledge embraced my skin
The smoke from the halls sank in my nose, my eyes, my soul, my shit, my grin
I screamed for my life, I screamed, I screamed, "Help me"
No one can hear you in the walls of sin
Concrete floors that I love living in
One last breath before I give in
Just one last breath before it's Christmas morning
The bells are out and I'm in mourning
Wish I had a sign, wish I had a warning
That the bells of Heaven would come and erase my nose, my eyes, my sin, my face
On New Years Eve
The years behind are just another reason to lead
All the beautiful lives we lead
When fear is all we need
What a beautiful life

What a beautiful life
What a beautiful life