Rotting

(album: Rockabye - 2023)

I can
Feel it coursing through my veins
Burning through me
With nothing to dilute my pain

I can feel it spreading
God, it's spreading
And my heart has skipped a beating

Slow my breathing
Regulate my endless fear
Isolation
I hate to be abandoned here

I can feel it spreading
God, it's spreading
And I feel my center bleeding

I am without a doubt
Rotting from the inside out

Vision blurring
Diction slurring
Organs turning
Just enduring

As I look to reflect on my past
I have learned not to live life too fast
As I look to this gory forecast
Was my life worth something?

I avoided the breaks at all costs
Never noticed that I might be lost
Too afraid of my fears and too
Exhausted to be outstanding

My grotesqueness
Is breathtaking
I said, "Leave me"
I was faking