Idiot

(album: Tear Tracks - 2021)

I've gotta clean the house today
The outside world just don't seem safe
I might let myself waste away
To feel like I have something in control
I wanna hurt myself today
It's been a while and I miss the pain
I give out and get no gains

I've only got myself to blame
But I won't be seeking your help again
'Cause you've got priorities
You've got priorities (Priorities)

I'm sorry I missed you
You know that I'm hurting
Wanna stay in, do bad things I regret
I'm an idiot
I'm sorry I missed you
(I just wanna stay home)
You know that I'm hurting
(And it's not your fault)
Wanna stay in, do bad things I regret
I'm an idiot

Wanna stay in, do bad things I regret
I'm an idiot

Could I serve myself today
Stay in bed and masturbate
Feel like I deserve the break
What a dream I'll never live that way

Wanna stop this rut today
I've listed all the things I'll change
I expect too much but give away my energy

I've only got myself to blame
But I won't be seeking your help again
'Cause you've got priorities
You've got priorities (Priorities)

I'm sorry I missed you
You know that I'm hurting
Wanna stay in, do bad things I regret
I'm an idiot
I'm sorry I missed you
(I just wanna stay home)
You know that I'm hurting
(And it's not your fault)
Wanna stay in, do bad things I regret
I'm an idiot

Wanna stay in, do bad things I regret
I'm an idiot
I'm sorry I missed you
(I just wanna stay home)
You know that I'm hurting
(And it's not your fault)
Wanna stay in, do bad things I regret
I'm an idiot