Honest Me

(album: The Zoo - 2009)

Just be honest
Let me explain what I feel like, on the inside
Something that I struggle with in real life
Along with lust, and real pride
I tussle with giving up my will trying
To see through this flesh with real eyes
And focus on the real prize, cause
See through this flesh is where real lies
But I feel like quote unquote, "real lies"
Got my tongue knotted in a twist tie
Like Lord Jesus, be done will thy
Help me submit to thy will
In the times when I feel, my flesh
Tryna get fresh like Will
I am, I need your real God dance
To be my Aunt Viv-ian, and Uncle Phil
I, need something like a quick still life
Pick-pick of your will Christ
This sick-sick ill life, got me feeling ill like
Tell me where to go turn my wheel right
So I'm not left, marking still time
Selfishly taking watch, tryna steal time
Not much to ask cause your still God moving in real time
I'm taking off this mask, this is real time

Lord this time it's, me
Imma just be honest, me
Tryna get beyong this, me
And keep my promise, yes
Lord this time it's, it's me
Imma just be honest, honest me
Tryna get beyond this, the honest me
And keep my promise

Focused on my own agenda
At times got me feeling like a winner
Moving to and fro, mentally
City to city but I'm not in the, right mind state
Sometimes when I say I'm into building
I forfeit my estate, and that's my mistake
But when you say you're into building
You look past my mistakes
To do construction where my heart at
Truth as the tool belt, salvation the hard hat
Sometimes I got a hard head
And gotta lay right where I made my hard bed
Giving up this will is the hardest
To claim to be a thug, but I got a hard flesh
And so far this, has been no joke
Tryna pick up yo' yoke and put down this harness
That got me with a hard neck
If I'm not careful I'll have a hard-hard next
Then when time runs out, and we in the clouds
You'll at me and say depart next
And now I'm separate, in a lake of flames with charred legs
So my heart's des-ire, is to remove mine
And put your will where my heart is
I'm being honest

Lord this time it's, me
Imma just be honest, me
Tryna get beyong this, me
And keep my promise, yes
Lord this time it's, it's me
Imma just be honest, honest me
Tryna get beyond this, the honest me
And keep my promise

Yo this a real song for real people
That feel like me, you struggle
With giving up with what you wanna do
Feel like Paul in Romans 7:19
The good that you wanna do you don't do, you know
But Jesus says in Matthew 11:30
That His yoke is easy, and His burden is light
We just gotta have the wisdom and strength
Just put down our harness of sin, and pick up that yoke
Cause as He said, it's easy
But we, being in our flesh
Try to make picking up that yoke hard, you know what I'm saying
I'm just being real right now, you know
Try to make picking up that yoke hard
That's the struggle that we deal with
Dying to the flesh, you know what I mean
But, we gotta die so we can live
Yes