Suffocate

(album: Dysphoria - 2021)

You can run it back again, but I know how this story ends
If it seems I'm on the mend, I promise you it's just pretend

And every time I tell myself I've had enough
I realize I'm not the man I thought I was
Still worshipping a poison that is killing me
A losing game that I have no intentions of winning

Suffocate, with dreams I will burn
(Cause it's all I'm worth)
Watch me throw away the lessons I've learned

When will I ever learn?

Running from myself has always been the first tactic
Dealing with tragic occurrences internalized
Cutting the ties in the blink of an eye
I'll try to rationalize everything I fucked up
Even though all the blame is in my name
I've got nothing to gain from admitting to myself and everyone else
I made a mistake I can never take back

In a war that I can't win with such a clever medicine
It's so easy to forget, so just run it back again

Every time I tell myself, "enough"
I'm lying
But this is what I deserve

Suffocate, with dreams I will burn
(Cause it's all I'm worth)
Watch me throw away the lessons I've learned