Kept It All To Myself

(album: The Weather Station - 2017)

Kept it all to myself
Kept it all to myself
Kept it all to myself

There were days
When the luminescence of the skies
Or the deep brown grasses
Struck me so hard
In the early evening
I can hardly take it
That light feeling
I rode up past St. Clair
Same old city
But it could have been anywhere
And the scent of the air so exotic
Every thought like I never have thought it
And I felt that confidence in me
Like a child in a strange new body

I kept it all to myself
I kept it all to myself
I kept it all to myself

Sometimes I loved you unadulterated, purely
Untouched by doubt or by my memory
Sometimes I loved you
In a shadowed way
Windscreen clearing but still
Streaked with grey
Sometimes we held hands
Like we were children
And I'd never known anything different
Like I'd never known anything different
Like I'd never known
I tried to leave you, I left only myself
Before I knew it, I was down in the well
Sometimes I felt like I was floating
High by the ceiling as we were just talking
And kind faces would change on me
Eyes and nose and mouth
Unfamiliar assembly

I kept it all to myself
I kept it all to myself
I kept it all to myself

I got so tired of all of the subtext
The subtleties and the minute regrets
You were smiling like you thought
I couldn't see you
Like you're afraid of what I might reveal in you
Is it better if I look away?
If all I know I never do say?
My love is the heaviest thing
I understand if you don't want to wear my ring
My love is the heaviest thing
So I kept it all to myself

You would think I had so much wealth
If I kept it all to myself
If I kept it all
To myself
To myself

I kept it all to myself
Kept it all to myself
Kept it all to myself

Left it all to myself
I kept it all to myself
I kept it all to myself
I kept it all to myself