Return Year

(album: Spider Web - 2018)

Something takes a hold of me again
Something tries to take away the time that we have
And I wish that I could hold you but I can't
I wish that I could see you everyday but I can't
I don't wanna wallow but I am
I don't wanna leave my house again, but I am
And I wish that I could hold you but I can't
I wish that I could see you everyday but I can't

In my life there's struggles of which I can't identify
In my heart I see you as someone I have always liked
Now I think I might of found the one
Sinister in being and in mind
I return to something that I never knew beyond
In a daze around you in a moment I'll be gone
The hardest part of being by myself
Never knowing how I'll spend my nights
And now I've hurt, I am hurt
It's painful to keep on pushing through
I'm present forever, I give myself entirely to you
I'm moving and forward, there's nothing but for her
I can't stop when I should
The past is sadder and it's always back to you

Something takes a hold of me again
Something tries to take away the time that we have
And I wish that I could hold you but I can't
I wish that I could see you everyday but I can't
I don't wanna wallow but I am
I don't wanna leave my house again, but I am
And I wish that I could hold you but I can't
I wish that I could see you everyday but I can't

Reluctant, I'm here now
It's so hard to be around
Come back here, another round
Return year, return year
I can't rest my head, dead, dead, dead
If something was the same, now it's not dear
I can't call you up when I want to
Everyday is long when you're not here
Must be hard to be the best, yes, yes, yes
Lost myself inside and I don't care
I still lift you up when it's hard to
You're inside my mind and I don't care

Something takes a hold of me again
Something tries to take away the time that we have
And I wish that I could hold you but I can't
I wish that I could see you everyday but I can't
I don't wanna wallow but I am
I don't wanna leave my house again, but I am
And I wish that I could hold you but I can't
I wish that I could see you everyday but I can't
Something takes a hold of me again
Something tries to take away the time that we have
And I wish that I could hold you but I can't
I wish that I could see you everyday but I can't
I don't wanna wallow but I am
I don't wanna leave my house again, but I am
And I wish that I could hold you but I can't
I wish that I could see you everyday but I can't