Deadlocked

(album: Letters To Our Former Selves - 2019)

Sometimes I just feel like I'm
Hopelessly devoted to this depression in my head
It's been stuck in there since I was just a kid, now I'm almost a man
Learning things about myself I wish that I never did
And I'm sick of hating this person that I've become
And I'm sick of always feeling like I'm all that I've got
I'm so tired of singing the same old songs
So tired of feeling so alone

People say you've just got to try and move on
But these concrete shoes that I'm wearing are overbearing
These days, I can't stop wishing my life away
Is there anybody out there that could fix me?

I hate to see my parents in me
They're the last things I ever wanted to be
But as I took up the drinking things only got worse
My inhibitions were dropped, but the sadness still hurts
There's a hole in my head and a hole in my chest
That can't be soothed by any bottle or sedative

Just got to try and move on
But these concrete shoes that I'm wearing are overbearing
These days, I can't stop wishing my life away
Is there anybody out there that could fix me?

People say you've just got to try and move on
But these concrete shoes that I'm wearing are overbearing
These days, I can't stop wishing my life away
I don't think there's anybody out there that could fix me

I couldn't fix me
You couldn't fix me
They couldn't fix me
I think I'm the only one who could fix me