Adrenaline

(album: ...If You Don't Save Yourself - 2021)

All my life, I've drowned in adrenaline
Now my blood runs slow like a sedative
I wake up past noon and they settled in
Lord, please help me up
I don't wanna lay down
So help me get the fuck back up
I don't wanna lay down, down, down
Help me get myself back up
I don't wanna lay down

I feel the pain in my reflection, I
I wanna get away, so I just step inside
I feel more alone when I have extra eyes
Fucking staring at me

I wanna feel numb
Give me Novocaine for everyone else
Sick of staying in the house, I need a home for myself
To be alone, I can tell, that you don't know how it felt
I had to let go of you just to get a hold of myself, because

All my life, I've drowned in adrenaline
All my life, I've drowned in adrenaline
Now my blood runs slow like a sedative
I wake up past noon and they settled in
Lord, please help me up
I don't wanna lay down (down, down)
So help me get the fuck back up
I don't wanna lay down, down, down
Help me get myself back up
I don't wanna lay down

Life been giving me too many warnings
Couldn't get up out of bed in the morning
Sleep for 12, or be away for 12?
I can't decide on which is even more important
Can't hold my head up, won't attempt to get up
I'm not even sure on why I'm fed up today
Swear it's no lie if I said that I'm fine
At the same time, it's false if I said I'm okay

Now, I don't need your sympathetic remorse
I'm different from where you shoot shots in the dark
Aiming for something you don't know is there
Or hoping you'll pin when the target is hard
Now, I don't mean to be rude
But you never walked a single day in my shoes
Don't act like you know what's it's like to be me
I won't act like I know what it's like to be you

All my life, I've drowned in adrenaline
Now my blood runs slow like a sedative
I wake up past noon and they settled in
Lord, please help me up
I don't wanna lay down
So help me get the fuck back up
I don't wanna lay down, down, down
Help me get myself back up
I don't wanna lay down

All my life, I've drowned in adrenaline
All my life, I've drowned in adrenaline
All my life, I've drowned in adrenaline
Now my blood runs slow like a sedative
I wake up past noon and they settled in
Lord, please help me up
I don't wanna lay down
So help me get the fuck

All my life, I've drowned in adrenaline
Now my blood runs slow like a sedative
I wake up past noon and they settled in
Lord, please help me up
I don't wanna lay down
So help me get the fuck back up
I don't wanna lay down, down, down
Help me get myself back up
I don't wanna lay down