In My Hands

(album: ...If You Don't Save Yourself - 2021)

I remember you were dying in my hands, scared to walk away
If you were here right now, I'd probably let you down
Dying in my hands, scared to walk away
If you were here right now, if you were here right now

My eyes were locked and closed, with that dream to hold you close
I don't fight the feeling usually, oh, Lord
Tonight I might overdose, stop the bleeding, I suppose
Like the user that I used to be, ooh
But then, like it's not real, like I don't feel the way I feel
But you've been holding me without your arms
It's time to let you go

I remember you were dying in my hands, scared to walk away
If you were here right now, I'd probably let you down
Dying in my hands, scared to walk away
If you were here right now, if you were here right now
If you were here right now, if you were here right now

Is it my fault that I try to fix all my habits, when I had it?
Can't run around any circles, tryna fix that shit, it's tragic
And I never asked "Have you thought about it?", that's my fault, not acting
Like, you should forgive me, it's obvious that I fucked up
And I'm asking you to come and stay
Another day, another chance that I can fuck it up
In another way, what's the point?
I see destruction ain't above it, now it's on the way
Love it if you stay, but I'm selfish and the one to blame, uh

Every time I look at your face
Just wishing that I had something to say
Meant nothing to you, we're one and the same
I wish I wouldn't have stayed

I remember you were dying in my hands, scared to walk away
If you were here right now, I'd probably let you down
Dying in my hands, scared to walk away
If you were here right now, if you were here right now
If you were here right now, if you were here right now
If you were here right now, if you were here right now