Gimmicks

I ain't gon' lie, been stressing 'bout the guap for a minute
Call her over, it's easier not to think when I'm in it
Sit in silence after, I don't wanna talk when we're finished
It ain't worth it, you would never understand the hell I been in
Smoke till I'm in a panic then drink till I'm spinning
It been lowering my energy, don't wanna lose vision
All I'd ever want was love but all my trust in them digits
Rather battle all them demons all alone, don't wanna kick it
A&R's calling my phone pitching, telling me I'm different
Couldn't name two songs, all I hear is bird talk
I know you a pigeon, coming for my soul but I already been sinning
I feel like I'm dead, don't ask how I'm living
I been in my head, don't know why I can't pin it
If I did it all again, I would stop the beginning
Coulda been had bread but I don't like gimmicks

'Cause that shit is lame, only do this for my pain
I ain't tryna ride on no wave, I just get high, fly away
I just pretend I'm okay, when it's a lot on my plate
It be a lot that's at stake, pray the lord my soul to take
Lot of people talking down on my name
Then they gon' hit me up tell me I've changed
Don't want me up, know they want me the same
Try to pray for them, I'm losing my faith
When I go out all my energy's drained
Only see E when I'm checking my gauge
Roll up some gas tryna fill up my tank
I'm a nice guy but I'm filled up with rage
Drown in my mind, really feel like a lake of fire
I'm just hoping to put it out
Damaged me, know I acquired
A bad taste, it was left in my mouth
I've been working overtime
Going numb but love my bank account
Foot got stuck, I'm in overdrive
And I hate how it's been playing out

I ain't gon' lie, been stressing 'bout the guap for a minute
Call her over, it's easier not to think when I'm in it
Sit in silence after, I don't wanna talk when we're finished
It ain't worth it, you would never understand the hell I been in
Smoke till I'm in a panic then drink till I'm spinning
It been lowering my energy, don't wanna lose vision
All I'd ever want was love but all my trust in them digits
Rather battle all them demons all alone, don't wanna kick it
A&R's calling my phone pitching, telling me I'm different
Couldn't name two songs, all I hear is bird talk
I know you a pigeon, coming for my soul but I already been sinning
I feel like I'm dead, don't ask how I'm living
I been in my head, don't know why I can't pin it
If I did it all again, I would stop the beginning
Coulda been had bread but I don't like gimmicks