For The First Time

(album: Always Tomorrow - 2020)

I'm trying really hard
I'm trying harder than I ever have before
Used to think that taking care
Of myself would just become a real bore
On Friday nights I don't spend
Too much time lying on the bathroom floor
Like I used to
The demons deep inside of me
They might've finally been set free

And I guess this is what they mean
When they say
People can change
'Cause I finally feel free
I feel like myself again
But for the first time

I changed the colors of the bedsheets
Now they are a pretty pale pink
Traded her in for a new girl
And she's looking pretty fine
But sometimes she don't listen to me
And it makes me wanna lose my mind
Like you used to
I tried to blame it all on you
But I know that I'm to blame too

And I guess this is what they mean
When they say
People can change
'Cause I finally feel free
I feel like myself again
But for the first time

I used to think that I would die without you
And no offense to you but I'm doing fine too

'Cause finally I'm free
I feel like myself again
But for the first time
And no offense to you but I'm doing fine too
But for the first time
Yeah, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time