Bank Account (Remix)

I'm next to F, to the left of P
To the left of F, bitch I'm G.O.D
Got a lot to learn, lately I've been hurt
Cause the people around me straight fake to me
No one else can really see what I do
No one can relate to my perspective
Everybody stay asking questions
Tell them all fuck off, say I'm too protective
But that's just me watching my back
Cause no one else watching my back
I've been in the mode of attack
And I see it's hurting the people I have
Real close to me in my life
Every day a new argument a new fight
And it's all my fault
I think I just might need time away
But no I must fight
I am the pride of my learning
I am the reason my momma is hurting
Never on purpose
She just concerned
And I just keep shutting her out
At a loss of my words (I'm sorry)

See I'm still trying to understand
How to deal with all I've earned in the last year
More is coming I can feel it, and I'm not scared
I'm just trying to be prepared so my mind's there

Where I needed to be
Cause right now it ain't where I need it to be
All hope is lost I know I need to be
Focused on what the the goal is, eating beats
It's hard cause I, feel like my soul's been darkened by
The demons I hope that I fought tonight
But fuck it I have to flip up on the lights
I'm turning on the lights
So you can throw shade, but I'm too bright
Blinding every hater til they lose sight
Making sure the boy ain't never lose hype
Grabbing every single W in sight
Never lose, I'm a winner when I go in
In the heart's where you feel it when I go in
Stay true to myself when I go in
I turn into another beater when I go in
I'll be the genie for my father, mother, brother, sister
I'll be the one they count on
To get anything they wish for
With no doubts they gon' get it
They can throw away their wish bones
And never have to think twice
Cause I'll be there for the pickup
For the pickup
If they fall down, if they been hurt
That's real shit and real shit hurts
Life's hard at times but this shit's worth it
Praise God and thank him cause this shit's working
And everything around me steady changing up
The flows hoes, even my homies' is changing up
Opportunity's coming, that's right we moving up
As I get older I feel hatred from those who are stuck
Stuck in the denial phase, that eight bucks an hour phase
They hate me cause I'm paid, and all of them outraged
But fuck it, I'm out here, been giving it my best
Now haters they ride with, the person that out did
All the shit that they was tryna do
They wasn't working even close to nearly how I do
And that's the reason, please just understand my mindset
You won't believe it but I'm still adjusting, I have been
Still tryna rap my fucking head around my life
As crazy as that seems, think about it
I wake up and I'm still living in my dreams
Living out, every thing I used to think about
Praying it would come to me, it came
And now my bank account is growing and I'm blessed
Not a milly but a safe amount, I'm thankful how
Life has been to me and all the ways that everything turned out
Every time I pray to God, not knowing if he heard me
He was blessing me with lessons to get me here, but securely
They say I'm premature, they say this happened too early
A student to life itself, I'll make sure I'm constantly learning
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