Talking To Myself

(album: The Longest Year: Part Two - 2021)

When I'm bored
I get drunk and I smoke cigarettes
Pretend my life's worse than it is
And feel sorry for myself

When I'm bored
I text anyone who will text me back
Cause I want attention want it bad
But it's not enough to help

I guess there's something wrong with me
Think everybody sees it too
Cause I'm the biggest hypocrite I've ever met
Yeah, I'm a little sick of waking up like this

It's hard to be alone
When I don't really like me
I keep talking to myself
But not very nicely
Oh, I'm scared of where I'll go
If I don't say the right things
Cause I keep talking to myself
But not very nicely

(I keep talking to myself)
(But not very nicely)
(I keep talking to myself)
(Talking to myself)

Now I'm here
And I'm just drinking more alcohol
Only way I can deal with it all
Cause I can't do face to face

You would think
That I'd open up to someone who
Wants to love me but I'd rather choose
To push them far away
Cause I don't know if I'll change

There's something wrong with me
Think everybody sees it too
Cause I'm the biggest hypocrite I've ever met
Yeah, I'm a little sick of waking up like this

It's hard to be alone
When I don't really like me
I keep talking to myself
But not very nicely
Oh, I'm scared of where I'll go
If I don't say the right things
Cause I keep talking to myself
But not very nicely

(I keep talking to myself)
(But not very nicely)
(I keep talking to myself)
(Talking to myself)