Ode To Depression

Ooh, sleep away the sadness
Pop some pills, and then it's gone
But no one speaks of its hiding place
Hid behind the coat of arms and
Some days I'll feel happy
As happy as can be
And I'll trick my twisted insides
To perform hospitality
Yeah, that's just me
That's just me
So, with a heavy heart
On the ground, I'll stand
Because if I fall backwards
I won't land in the sand
And I'll cocoon myself around
Anything that has a pulse
And convince them to love me
So maybe I don't feel all alone
It's dark and I need a light
To find my way home

Every day, it feels like I'm losing my youth
The earth doesn't turn for me
The birds are unnervingly mute
And their sweet, sweet melody
Once filled with so much passion
Gently floating up like dandelions
To flutter my lashes
And if you asked me if I was okay
Well, I'd have to save the lies for another coffee date
And maybe you can call me messed up
Maybe you can call me messed up

To my family and friends: I feel the love, I do
But I can't help the feeling in my veins
When paranoia slips through and it makes me think
"Am I pretty? Am I true?"
Do you get a glimpse of hope
In our big, bad world
When I'm laughing with you?
Doubt's the superglue of the soul
And doubt doesn't waver up the rabbit hole

Every day, it feels like I'm losing my youth
The earth doesn't turn for me
The birds are unnervingly mute
And their sweet, sweet melody
Once filled with so much passion
Gently floating up like dandelions
To flutter my lashes
And if you asked me if I was okay
Well, I'd have to save the lies for another coffee date
And maybe you can call me messed up
Maybe you can call me messed up
Maybe you can call me messed up
Maybe you can call me

One, two, one, two, three, four!

No, I'm not damaged!
My mind just needs a tune-up
If Band-Aids can fix bleeds
Why can't Band-Aids fix me?