DUST 2 DUST

[Flowz Dilione:]
I was raised in a shitty place, where the the sun sets west of the city scape
I slept in a bed that was never made, and used to dream about food on my dinner plate
No heater when the winter came, so cold, blood wouldn't spill when I'd slit my veins
That was life and it didn't change for 19 years in my mind I was in a maze
I was trapped and I couldn't see a future, only all these things that I wouldn't be, I took a gamble and paid the price like a bookies fee
It's hard to stay straight and narrow in these crooked streets

I used to chill with this one chick, she had a big heart but her dad was a fuckwit
Me and her lived together in her mums crib, a halfway house cause her mother was a junkie
I was 15 and living on her couch, Grace if you can hear me then I'm thinking of you now
And you're probably wondering why I'm not around after everything we went through I don't wanna let you down

[Chillinit:]
Growing up I couldn't wait to be a dad
I was chilling with my brothers while I'm blazing through a bag
Think about everything that you do that's gone make me mad (Ah)
Cause' you'll be just like your dad

I was only 23 and your mother was 21
And we was never meant to have a son
From the moment you was born and you knew that I'd show you love
Maybe that this baby's a blessing from up above

We was in a bit of a jam
Cause your daddy couldn't never keep his dick in his pants
Cause your daddy he's a prick of a man
Told your mother that he love her
Fucking bitches with a spliff in his hand

Trust me daddy put in work
Daddy bled his fingers to the bone till it hurt
Tell em daddy put you first
Daddy put emotions to the side while he grind
Tell 'em daddy did his dirt
Till your daddy went berserk

[Flowz Dilione:]
Do you remember when she broke my heart, when I came to yours in the morning I was soaked in blood
I climbed through your window to your open arms, you packed me up a cone and you told me that you know it's hard
I'll keep you in my heart til my last breath, cause you've been there from the start you're my last chance
And I hate that your face is the past tense, hate even more in the present that we aren't friends
But I'll always have your back, cause you're the only one who said I 'd fall into a trap
You told me that I more than just collapsed, but I stayed ignorant and kept ignoring all the facts

But a lesson learnt is an answer earned, sometimes the question hurts so be careful first
I left school at an early age, with the hopes of a job and to earn a wage

[Chillinit:]
Mummy hates daddy cause he flirts
Girls perfume she can smell it on the shirt
But for some reason mummy say daddy is the world
While your daddy's out getting called daddy by the girls

Started getting evil to the sound
How the fucks it gonna work
How we gon' raise this child
How the fuck we ever gon' keep our feet up on the ground
How we gon' see the light when there be demons all around?

Mumma started feeling like dad
And now I'm thinking that you're better not had
Now I'm thinking our opinion is you're better off dead (Arghh)
I've got things that are better not said

2 days pass without a second of time
We flatline, goodbye yo' we ended your life
And a part of me blames her, mostly I blame me
You'll never get to know about a future that may be

We'll never get to see you walk your first stack
We'll never get to hear you talk your first rap
I'm so sorry that you never had the chance
And you never got the voice
Never got your second glance
Never got your first kiss
Never got your first dance (Argh)
All because your daddy ain't a man
And nowadays I've been crying like a lot
But I'm tryna keep it in
Tryna hide it from my pops
Till I'm loading up a gun
Maybe firing a shot
Till I'm lying on the ground
Left dying on the block (Argh)
But in a way now I'm riding to the top
Am I supposed to thank God for a life you never got?

It's got me fucked up
It's got me fucked up
Huh, it's got me fucked up
(Always fucked up)

[Flowz Dilione:]
Mum packed her stuff and she moved away, I had to figure out to close the book you have to turn the page
But my job didn't work out, and then I stopped looking cause I knew I'd get turned down
I was over waiting and my motivation was gone, all I wanted was to make her proud
The years to follow were my hardest, I went through a lot of shit, been swallowed by the darkness

But I came out the other end, with the knowledge of a man who's died a hundred deaths
Through it all I'm only left with a couple friends, but they're my fam and will remain until the fucking end
(My fam, the fuckin end)

[Huskii:]
I wanna kill somebody
But myself the one I'm killing lately
I never loved nobody till I met my little baby
Still you hate me
Still you take him
Still you rape me over text with some pics of him and a dude you dating
Moved away when I asked you, said you ain't talk to me
We've got a kid together, how's this bitch ignoring me?
Her family fucked, if I come to the door they reporting me
Its haunting me to know that my son might think I ain't wanted him
Late in the day in the day I'm awake and in pain shivering
Isolated tryna escape cause I hate fitting in
Blame it on the way I was raised and my brain sizzling
Maybe from the A2 pills and these 8 Ritalin
She knows I'll fight for the death just to see my son
I know that she hates me she's angry at what I done
I'd give her space let her move on and try be a mum
And she says I'll never see him and disappears on the run
I know she needs my help I'd fucking need it to
We're new to this shut she doesn't see what she needs to do
Work with me I'm here for him
I ain't leaving you
I keep wondering why you run like I'm beefing you
Aha, never thought I'd be a Dad
Out here doing rorts to get a bag
Then I met your mother
She changed me and showed me things I never had
Made me think maybe I wasn't just like my dad
I was 18 your mummy was still in school
Used to think that all the dumb shit I done was cool
I used to use the way she looked at me as my fuel
Got me through a lot without her I was acting like a fool
But I don't know what happened to us
Mummy started hating Dad for the racket he does
Mummy started hating visions of daddy with sluts
And told me she was pregnant
Daddy got put back in the cuffs
Now mummy's at the back of the bus
Tryna visit me in prison dropping bags of the buds
Now she's taking daddy's pills tryna manage his stuff
I can't forgive myself for all the damage daddy has done
I tried to turn my back on this life
Few months went by but we ain't have nothing nice
I see myself every time I stare in the whites of your eyes
And all the things I never had your daddy has to provide
So daddy's trapping for nappies and wipes
You getting stabbed, you're selling packets for Addies and Nikes
I swear this life was nothing that your daddies was like
Mummy doesn't see my side she thinks I'm trapped in this life