Reckless

(album: Psycho Therapy - 2020)

Can't fight these demons I've tried
Can't trust these thoughts in my mind
So reckless, so reckless
Can't fight these demons I've tried
Can't trust these thoughts in my mind
So reckless, so reckless

Broken man inside a broken mirror
Dissipate with an open beer
Open bottles, more regrets
Mind overthinking got my soul in fear
Hate the evil but I hold it dear
I never run away or fucking show a tear
I been to hell and back, and still I'm holding here
I'ma stand my ground for my own career
I've never selled out, or sell my soul
Sell my dreams, I won't sell my hopes
But you did just to sell your flows
It's like all you rappers lack self control
But I know the feeling, scared of demons when you're all alone
Shit I'm scared of people cuz I know that people
Got a lot of demons that they call their own
What the fuck do you know about that, huh?
Mind always stuck in the past, huh
The only relief is to sleep
But every dream is making you panic
Causing you chaos and havoc
Something you never imagined
Would happen to you, but now you caught up and you can't run

Can't fight these demons I've tried
Can't trust these thoughts in my mind
So reckless, so reckless
Can't fight these demons I've tried
Can't trust these thoughts in my mind
So reckless, so reckless

I been waking up out my sleep
In a cold sweat like someones out for me
And I never end up in a mode to change it
Cuz it's always me and I can never face it
Cuz I sit alone and battle with my thoughts
And internal scars don't show I've fought
People think I'm fine but can't gaze within
At my broken heart where my pain begins
Self doubt fucking with my process
Not letting go fucking with my progress
Loss of trust got me out of pocket
I hear her voice and can't fucking stop it
And a tick tick
My times coming
Tick tick
Know my times coming
Tick Tick
The days drawing closer where
Tick Tick
I become my closer
Been fighting and swinging and fighting and swinging
Looking for a reason to hold on and clinging
My knuckles are bloody and bruising and stinging
Don't know if I really want a new beginning
Or where I'll end up cuz I know I've been sinning
My demons inside are constantly singing
Do it, do it, do it, do it
I don't wanna
Do it, do it, do it, do it

Can't fight these demons I've tried
Can't trust these thoughts in my mind
So reckless, so reckless
Can't fight these demons I've tried
Can't trust these thoughts in my mind
So reckless, so reckless