Good Enough For God

Father, this is my confession
Sending it from bloody knees
Save me from this sick obsession
Of wishing you were proud of me
Anything for your affection
Overdosed on wine and bread
The introspection's just a weapon
And it'll be the cause of death

I wouldn't blame you for pretending not to hear me pray
I bet you're sick of watching me make all the same mistakes
Know I've been distant, I'm not trying to take the easy way
Just can't imagine any paradise that's worth this pain

I've had my darkest thoughts
Trying to get to heaven
Twisted my mind in knots
Trying to be forgiven
Counting all the reasons I could go to hell but
Can't think of even one why I should love myself 'cause
I've never felt more lost
Trying to be good enough for God
Good enough for God

All my deepest scars are mental
From living with this quietly
My body has become a temple
For all of my anxieties
My cold beliefs are so judgemental
I worship in the church they built
If I can't let this go, I don't know
If I can live with all this guilt

I've had my darkest thoughts
Trying to get to heaven
Twisted my mind in knots
Trying to be forgiven
Counting all the reasons I could go to hell but
Can't think of even one why I should love myself 'cause
I've never felt more lost
Trying to be good enough for God
Good enough for God

Some days I let myself get angry 'cause I tried my best
Then overthink, it hit the gaslight, start to second guess
The biggest question in my head, I don't know how to tell
Am I a failure or did you just set me up to fail?
Am I a failure or did you just set me up to fail?
Am I a failure or did you just set me up to fail?

I've had the darkest thoughts
Trying to get to heaven
Twisted my mind in knots
Trying to be forgiven
Counting all the reasons I could go to hell but
Can't think of even one why I should love myself 'cause
I've never felt more lost
Trying to be good enough for God

(Father, this is my confession
Sending it from bloody knees)
Good enough for God
(Save me from this sick obsession
Of wishing you were proud of me)
(Good enough for God)
Father, this is my confession
Sending it from bloody knees
(Good enough for God)
Father, this is...
Father, this is...
Father, this is my confession