Forever Ago

(album: If It Bleeds It Can Be Killed - 2021)

I got some secrets I should've told you forever ago
Forever ago
But if I tell you now, you probably ain't gon' love me no more
Ain't gon' love me no more, shit

I only lied to you to protect you from the truth (That's all)
But if I tell you now, you may never forgive me (I know you ain't gon' fuck with me no more)
I burn a branch, take a sip of this Rémy
I got some secrets that's killing me, I been keeping my feelings to myself
Know you gonna despise my acts
When you find out I was sleeping with your sister behind your back
(What?)
We was both drunk and high, we was vibing, her ass was fat
I wasn't used to all this money and fame I'm getting from rap
You know I don't know how to act, I was piling all them racks
One thing led to another, I'm fucking her from the back, damn
What the fuck was I thinkin'? (I don't know)
Shit, I must've been tweaking, that's why I gotta quit drinking (I gotta stop)
Went through the phone and seen the text asking me, "When we linkin'?" (Hah?)
Around the time when she was in Buffalo for the weekend (Word)
I denied it, that look in your eyes, you knew I was lying, I could
I could tell by your silence, I'm sorry, bae, I was wyling

I got some secrets I should've told you forever ago (I should've told you)
Forever ago
But if I tell you now, you probably ain't gon' love me no more (You ain't gon' love me)
You ain't gon' love me no more (I know you ain't gon' fuck with me)
I got some secrets I should've told you forever ago
Forever ago (I should've been told you this shit)
But if I tell you now, you probably ain't gon' love me no more (I know you ain't gon' love me no more)
Ain't gon' love me no more, shit (I gotta tell you anyway)

Look, I pour a shot of 'gnac and light my Gelato up (Light up)
I got so much shit that I just keep bottled up
This paranoia keep me in the house and out of touch (I don't go outside)
I hear somebody at my door, I pick my throttle up (Who the fuck is this?)
I got robbed, I got hit when niggas shot up my truck (I got hit)
I didn't die, but what if next time I'm out of luck? (Hmm)
I been depressed, so everyday I pick my bottle up
Drowning in my own sorrows, yeah, I know it's fucked up
But PTSD, and I'm bipolar (Hah?)
I compartmentalize, I never try to find closure
I wanna see my family straight before my eyes closing (For real)
I wanna put the drinks down, I need my mind sober (Uh-huh)
I got two sons I gotta be the example for
Need my business straight before another label slam the door (Talk to 'em)
I'm getting money, but I need to get my hands on more (Hah?)
With all this stress I can't stand no more (Woo)

I got some secrets I should've told you forever ago (I should've told you)
Forever ago
But if I tell you now, you probably ain't gon' love me no more (You ain't gon' love me)
You ain't gon' love me no more (I know you ain't gon' fuck with me)
I got some secrets I should've told you forever ago
Forever ago (I should've been told you this shit)
But if I tell you now, you probably ain't gon' love me no more (I know you ain't gon' love me no more)
Ain't gon' love me no more, shit (I gotta tell you anyway)