Fuck Me (I Didn't Know How To Say)

(album: Loud Without Noise - 2022)

I wanna be kissed like when I was small
You grew up and I got smaller than before
You went to clean up while I was shaking on the floor
But I didn't know how to say I don't want you near me
You deserved better, so I gave you my body

Time to count the kisses I've spent
I use my body to pay the rent
I said it was fine in your defense
But I didn't know how to say I don't want you to touch me
I didn't know how to say I don't want you to touch me
I didn't know how to say I don't want you to touch me

I'll love
Myself if you touch me like that
Can't speak
Hold off my panic attack
Use me
Use me if you just insist
That you love
The body you refuse to kiss

I'm not used to being loved
The kisses that led to sex were close enough
I'm in a stranger's arms, a stranger's bed, I can't relax my fucking head
I didn't know how to say I don't want you near me
I didn't know how to say I don't want you to touch me
I didn't know how to say I don't want you to fuck me

(I'll love
Myself if you touch me like that) Fuck me
(Can't speak
Hold off my panic attack) Fuck me
(Use me
Use me if you just insist) Fuck me
(But you love
The body you refuse to kiss)

(Love me) Fuck me
(Use me) Love me

But you didn't know how to say I want you to love me