Look For The Woman

(album: Angles - 2008)

There's a weight over me today
It's something I have to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough to stay

My head's in a mess
And I'm stressed
But I guess it's a test in the quest for happiness
And the rest of that mess
So I best just acquiesce
Even though I've grown tired of you

And that ain't meant to sound spiteful
I'm just trying to be insightful
When I write all my emotions
In the night, all the stuff I try to fight
Will just come out and the sad fact is, I'm so tired of you

Love, it's a weird thing ain't it?
There's no way to explain it
But I swear, as well as pain
There should be joy, but we sustain
The same level of mundane,
And it's numbing me through

I often wonder if I'd miss you,
And still have the urge to kiss you,
If an issue was to hit through
To this heart that now feels disused,
And said issue was too big to just ignore
And I walked out on you?

The chances are I'd fall apart
And suffer seizures of the heart
As my chest begins to smart
The very second have to part
I want to go back to the start
But then again, maybe I'd just feel new.

Maybe I'd get my life on track
And start to focus my attack
On all the things my life just lacks
And start to claw my passion back
Instead of living like a hack,
Half-committed, half-relaxed
I'd have nothing to lose

There's a weight over me today
It's something I have to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough to stay

There's a weight over me today
It's something I have to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough to stay

I guess lately I've had too much time to think
And yeah, way too much drink
When paper meets the ink
Overthinking is the chink in my armour
That's just what I do
And I've always been that way, forever questioning each day and every plea that's made that maybe
when I lay my busy mind will make me prove by finding problems and reasons
that might not even be true.

See, we got together so young,
Before our real lives had begun
But flowers don't grow up as one
Each finds its own way to the sun
And that's exactly what we've done.

We've grown up separately too,

And for a few years now it's been the problem,
And these realisations, I wish that I could stop them,
But I've realised that love is all we have in common,
And deep down you know that's true.

But then surely that I'm still in love with you means there's something we can do
To get us through and to pursue a brand new point of view on how this gap grew,
between me and you.

So there's a weight over me and I'd hate to have to leave,
But in fate I don't believe and the state of you and me isn't great as you can see
so I'll keep thinking this through.

There's a weight over me today
It's something I have to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough to stay

There's a weight over me today
It's something I have to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough to stay

There's a weight over me today
It's something I had to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough to stay

There's a weight over me today
It's something I have to say
Love you too much to leave
Don't like you enough to stay