a song about sin

(album: Honest Prayers - 2022)

I wake up
And I can't believe I'm here
What I've done
Makes me want to disappear
Cause I was so strong
So good for all these years
And I let it go
I let it go
And I blurred the clear lines
Pretending to justify it was alright
And I knew it would hurt
But what's even worse
Is I heard you the whole time

You can stop now
You can go home
I'm calling your name
Just pick up the phone
It's hard to be strong
It's hard to say no
That's why I don't want you to fight it alone
Just take one step
And I'll do the rest
I love you and I'll never change my mind
And I'm with you despite
Everything that you did last night

I go to church
And pretend to be okay
I sing the words
Like I'm some kind of saint
Then I cry in my car
And remember what I did
Like what a hypocrite

And I twisted the truth
I hate what I do
And yet I do it anyway
And I left such a mess
But you give me your best
So it hurts when I hear you say

You can stop now
You can go home
I'm calling your name
Just pick up the phone
It's hard to be strong
It's hard to say no
That's why I don't want you to fight it alone
Just take one step
Let me do the rest
I love you and I'll never change my mind
And I love you despite
Everything that you did last night
I'm calling your name

Half of me wants fire
Half of me wants grace
Or maybe the silent treatment
Will put me in my place
Cause I took something that you meant for good
And I turned it into my own truth
Right in front of you

From the beginning of time
You know what I did last night
And you gave us Jesus
And now I understand why
And I won't forget in my heart
Till the day I die
I repent and believe
In your will I will be just fine
So Father forgive
Everything that I did last night