Voices In My Head

(album: I Never Felt Nun - 2022)

When times was hard, life was rough, I tried giving up
I'm like maybe I wasn't meant for much
I miss big bruh so much sometimes I wish I went with him
Like "Don't worry, here I come"
I'm popping meds laying in bed tryna wake up dead
Instead I wake up aching, staring at my ceiling fan
Voice in my head said, "Quit playing and just finish it"
One to the head if you wanna end this shit
Let's just get it finished with

When my lil' cousin shot hisself my auntie found his body
I still be fighting that urge inside me, I need counseling probably
But who gon' listen to all this different shit you know I been into?
I can tell you something that'll make you sick that you'll swear isn't true
Have you ever dreamed you couldn't see but voices visit you
And tell you you'll be rich by twenty-six if you survive that boom
Hospital views, hard to get you stable, it's so many goons
Bright lights get dark like closing tunes, the reapers in the room
Grim said he'll take me far away soon as I tell 'em to
Then I felt Reek shake me, "Gee, you staying, we got shit to do"
I wanted to go, but you told me, "No," I'm glad I heard you spoke
Live or die, decide 'cause both is painful either way it goes

When times was hard, life was rough, I tried giving up
I'm like maybe I wasn't meant for much
I miss big bruh so much sometimes I wish I went with him
Like "Don't worry, here I come"
I'm popping meds laying in bed tryna wake up dead
Instead I wake up aching, staring at my ceiling fan
Voice in my head said, "Quit playing and just finish it"
One to the head if you wanna end this shit
Let's just get it finished with