Angel In Lothian (Deluxe Edition Bonus Track)

(album: Seventeen Going Under - 2021)

Well an angel fell somewhere in Lothian
I was only a child but I trust my eyes
She burned up like a comet before me
Before I could even say "Hi"
Saw kingdoms come and go in Bernicia
With a space station rattling above my head
And I saw the dead, I saw the dead

Back then yeah the door was always open
I'd come and go back and forth anytime I need
But I'm needing it more now than ever as I'm fading away
And I'd claw at the door every bad night
But somehow it's blocked from the other side
Claw 'til my skin comes apart until I feel something

And I remember that pain in my mother
Being helpless and feckless and far too young
And my brother was spiralling down
He said, "Kid, it's not me, it's this town."
So I rail against that feeling when it comes
I no longer have solitude behind that door
And there are no drugs that can hold it
You gotta hold it yourself

I wish an angel fell somewhere in Lothian
She could've fixed all the problems that I cannot fix
Then one day I might have kids myself
And hope that I don't fuck them up myself

Back then yeah the door was always open