Counterfeit

(album: Envy - 2020)

I take the backroads on my way home
I kill the radio and ride in silence
I really don't know what I'm doing with my life
I call my best friend, she says I'm over this
It's 4 AM and you should not be driving
I've really gotta go, look what's becoming of your life

Soon, you'll wake up sorry
Cursing at the morning, no
Don't call me back
Let's leave it at that
I said, one time is too many, girl
I fucked up plenty, but
I need you back
I need you bad

She said I can't hold on
To something that isn't there for me to hold onto
It's all my fault
For thinking I could be the one who changes you
And after all the things we've been through
I keep running back to rescue
The one I lost
I can't hold on

I'm a counterfeit, I'm not okay with it
Putting on a show and losing touch
Back to the basics, I've gotta figure out my life
I push and pulled until the root was exposed
Reminding me of who I was long ago
How will I ever make this right?

So if, I say I'm sorry
Can you ignore the warnings?
Will you, take me back?
I need you back

She said I can't hold on
To something that isn't there for me to hold onto
It's all my fault
For thinking I could be the one who changes you
And after all the things we've been through
I keep running back to rescue
The one I lost

I fought so hard to keep you near
Then I finally realized
You reopen the scars then disappear
Leaving me empty inside

So you can say you're sorry
Tell me not to worry, but
We can't get it back
The love that we had

I can't hold on
To something that isn't there for me to hold onto
It's all my fault
For thinking I could be the one who changes you
After everything we've been through
I keep running back to rescue
The one I lost
I can't hold on